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Guess what…!!!…???

I lost 3 pounds since last weigh in!!!!!!  Yay!!!

I have NO CLUE how I did it.  But who cares?  I LOST 3 POUNDS!!!!!!

Update on ice cream:  I’m still enjoying ice cream, just much less often.  It was just a phase, as I knew it was.  I’m still not eating as healthy as I should be, but I don’t think I’m eating as much as I was.   We are eating out more than we should, but I think I’m doing okay.  Maybe it’s denial.  LOL.

But…  The bottom line is…  I LOST 3 POUNDS!!!!!  I’m totally okay with that!

I hope everyone who reads this is doing great, and is starting their weekend off as well as I am!  Toodles!!!

I gained a pound back.  Great.  I guess it was the ice cream!  LOL! 

Actually, I’ve gotten over the ice cream kick I think.  I can just have it every once in a while and be ok.  Yes, I knew this, but your mind plays tricks with you sometimes.  And sometimes your stomach plays tricks with your mind.

I don’t really think I DID anything to gain a pound, but rather did NOTHING.  My short term goal is to start getting more exercise.  I plan to start getting up earlier every morning, so I can take a walk before it’s too hot.  Today, I was doing really good.  I was going to mow our front yard instead of waiting for my husband to do it.  Well, I can’t get the lawnmower started.  So here I am instead. 

Please pray for me, that I may have the energy and willpower (That’s the biggest!) to get up in the morning and start my day off by exercising!  Whoo Hoo!!

Good wishes for the week goes out to all of you!!  I pray that you have the energy and willpower YOU need!

Oh what to say…???

I have been doing well.  Pretty much.  Like I said earlier, I’ve been trying to focus on not OVEREATING.  It’s going better than I thought it would, really.  I’m not really strong enough yet to leave food on my plate, but I’m doing a little better at fixing smaller plates.  At least, I think I am.

However, for the past few days, I’ve had an evil weakness.  Pralines & Cream in a Waffle Cone.  I’m telling myself that eating it occasionally is ok.  So, I’m eating it every couple of days probably.  The problem is that I absolutely HAVE to have it.  I can’t LIVE without it.  I don’t think that is so healthy. 

May this phase be over soon…

I lost 2 pounds!!  I’m pretty sure most of it was due to clothing, but I’ll take it!  Yay!!  I’ve mainly been trying to not overeat, and that helps.  It’s so hard when I’m eating something I love.  I want to eat it until it’s gone.  But I’ll get better.

Thank you all so much for the comments.  It’s nice knowing someone is out there who knows what I’m going through.  I wish all of you the best of luck with your journeys, both in weight loss, and life in general.  Life is hard enough without adding weight problems to it.  But as they say, God will not give you more than you can handle!  There are times when that seems to be all that gets me through the day.

My husband likes big women.  He doesn’t care if I ever lose weight.  But he knows that my weight is bad for my health.  And he sees me worry about it, but knows I need motivation.  So he’s asked me to lose 50 pounds for him.  Does that make it easier?  Or just set me up for more disappointment if I fail?  But I shouldn’t think of it that way, right?  I will not fail.  I WILL NOT FAIL.  I WON’T FAIL!!!  There is no other way.

Does that not say it all??  I haven’t weighed in, and I’m afraid to.  I know that I’ve gained a lot of weight since the last time I logged in.  I know I need to lose weight.  There are so many reasons to do it.  So why can’t I get through my head??  I don’t know what it’s going to take to get me motivated.  I want to have a child.  I’m absolutely not at a healthy enough weight for that.  I know what I need to do, but I need a major kick in the butt to do it.  Help, please!!!!!!!

Thanks for the nudge Sandy!

I haven’t posted in a couple of weeks, but I have been checking in on most days. 

I am really in a slump.  Can I blame it on the holidays?  My mind is everywhere EXCEPT losing weight.  I have not maintained my 254, which is why I haven’t posted a new weight.  I am only one pound up, but that is not acceptable.

Thanks for all the great comments and messages.  I really need them.  I try to boost everyone else but when it comes to myself, he is a complete slacker.

I hope everyone reading this is doing better than I am.  Please do everything you can to keep your motivation.

Today isn’t a great day.  I came back to work after being off for a week.  I really didn’t want to come back.  My fiance, Josh, has a goal of getting to where I don’t have to work.  He’s told me that for a while, but I wasn’t really interested.  I felt like I would be bored at home with nothing to do.  Or else I would just want to go shopping all the time and I knew he wouldn’t make THAT much money! LOL!  But last night, I asked him if he could make that dream a reality before today.  Unfortunately, no.  So here I am again.  With a stack of paperwork to the ceiling, 96 emails, and who knows how many voicemails that I haven’t gotten to yet.  Come on, 5 o’clock!!!

I haven’t been doing so well with my eating the past couple of days.  I haven’t done extremely bad, but not well either.  I know that you know how I feel when I say that being that way really gets me further down, and makes me think “why bother?”  That’s where I am now.  I want to do good, but at the same time I really don’t care.  Money is very tight, and let’s face it: eating healthy costs more.  Having said that, I still make decent decisions at the grocery store.  I’ve been trying to buy everything fresh, instead of easy, and cook it pretty healthy.  But then comes the meal that I eat out because I don’t make time to bring a healthy lunch to work.  Like today.  Taco Bueno.  It is as unhealthy as it sounds.

What I really need is some good ideas for lunch.  Something quick and easy, but good, that I can bring from home.  I don’t eat salad, and I’m pretty much worn out on Lean Cuisine.  Does anyone out there have any ideas for me?  Keep in mind that I’m the sort of person who gets out of bed at the very last minute, and barely has time to do anything.

Ok, so on a brighter note, I made some extra money while I was off from work.  I used to sell Mary Kay, and I still have quite a lot of product, so I sold some on ebay.  Downside to that is that I lost my Paypal debit card, so I don’t have access to the money!  At least tomorrow is payday.

Everybody please keep me in mind, that I will get out of my slump and do better!  Thanks for being here when I need you!

Today was a decent day.  I’m on vacation from work until Thursday, so I’m home all day with plenty to do but not much I want to do.  Trying to get ready for Christmas.  The mood is here.  Food-wise, I didn’t do bad.  Until tonight.

My honey came home from work, and we both wanted Chili’s, instead of cooking at home.  Actually, if I had cooked, that would have been fine, but he mentioned a Chili’s hamburger, and that was what I had already been thinking about, so that’s where we went.

We had seen a commercial for the Baby Back Rib Bonus - ribs, fries, salad, and dessert for $10.99.  I don’t do ribs, but he does, and that’s a good deal, right?  So I ate my burger, and only a few fries.  I was kinda proud of that.  But we planned to share the dessert.

Chili’s has a new dessert.  You know their Chocolate Molten Cake?  They now have it in WHITE CHOCOLATE!  Oh. My. God.

So we finish our food, which wasn’t too much, but enough.  (Except for the chips I ate before the burger came.)  It was good.  I was full.  But then came dessert.

Holy Cow.

A huge plate, with a huge DELICIOUS cake on it, with a huge scoop of DELICIOUS ice cream, plus gooey stuff and white chocolate shavings, and all the works.

Why did I even order dinner?  This was plenty.  And it was there, so it HAD to be eaten.  He helped.  Probably ate close to half, even though it didn’t seem like it.

It was probably the best dessert I have ever had at a restaurant, bar none.  It was absolutely SINFUL.  The Devil.

Now that it’s over with, and now that the richness of it has tore up my stomach, I will go on.  That’s the first time in a long, LONG time that I have ordered dessert at a restaurant, and now I know why.  No more Baby Back Ribs Bonus.  I have enjoyed, overindulged, and, even though it was SO good, I really do regret it.  I don’t think I did enough to lose my star, but it made me guilty enough.

I will do better.

Yay!!!!!

How in the world did I do that?  I got on the scale this morning, and had lost 3 more pounds, since before Thanksgiving.  Whoo hooo!!!  I got a 5-pound star!!!

 I’m so excited, I don’t even know what to say.  My only concern is that it doesn’t go to my head, and make me slow down my efforts.  I’m really good at that.

So how was Thanksgiving for everyone?  I hope you stayed strong.  But just remember, if you didn’t, all you have to do is shake it off.  Make today a better day.

Sorry for the short post!  I hope you are all doing great!